Coming to Korea was the easiest decision I ever had to make.
Packing up my belongings, saying goodbye to a mother, father, and a slew of siblings wasn't as hard for me as it is to some people.
Sure, I miss them. My baby cousins were one, three, and seven when I left so it breaks my heart to miss their birthdays, to miss family get-togethers, and to miss being able to relate when they recall funny stories during this period in my absence.
I miss my friends too.
It is sad because I know whenever I return, everything will have changed. I would be different. They would be different. Our relationships would be different. Its a bittersweet feeling to know that even without you, the world keeps spinning, revolving, moving, and you realize just how small you are.
I am selfish. (I call it independent.) I make decisions for me with little regard for my family, for parents who worry and miss me very much. (Happy mother's day mom!)
But coming to Korea was the most important decision I ever made so far. I do not regret one second of it.
And the reason is simple: I am in love with my job, with my students, with the way the sun sets in my back yard. I am love with me. With life. And the friends I have made here.
You're so Asian with your 'V's lol
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